Monday, June 16, 2008

It's Hard To Be Me...


I can't begin to talk about my life without mentioning Zin Azharee, my fiancée. He is my love, my heart, my soul and my everything… I can explain how important he is in my life. He hasn't seen very much of me lately because I have been busy with work. As I write this, all of you can see the pictures of him or picture two of us together in my friendster and also my blogspot.
I love him so much, and I know that I am the luckiest women in the world to have him. I am pretty confident in saying that without his support, I probably would have given up by now, more than once when things got tougher than I could handle. Especially when he gets involved with another women.
I'd like to pray for me and my fiancée. We are making a lot of changes in our life, to be together, that may affect our life. I try not to worry but it’s unavoidable. I just ask God to help us be good husband and wife in the future and allow me to support my family.
Now, I want to all of you to share my experienced with him. It’s not easy to be the best for him. I’ll try my best to be me and I have to change myself to be the best for him. Before this, “I think he is cheating on me"… I keep thinking of it everyday. Sometimes it becomes my nightmare. If you have a same experience like me, first step you want to take is to "make sure". It is very important. Just do it. Be patience. Allah is always with us. One day, everything will clear as u want. Trust me. Allah will show you what ever evidence to make sure either he is cheating on you or not.

But the most important is to calm down and put yourself together... remember an easy answer is better than a strong answer that brings fire to the conversation.Talk to him.. Tell him... "Look it seems to me that you are changing, I just see it happening and I do not know what to do? It is me or is there something new that you might want to let me know?You are important to me and I want you with me only if you are going to keep our relationship save...which means no cheating and no lies...

Due between questions "let him talk" do not jump in the middle of his conversation.... show him respect and then he will be able to tell you... (Haha… some guy like my fiancée will never do that until the evidence in front of him. I mean until he cannot say anything)Now in case he says "I found another person and I want to be with her".... then...you will act like a princess "calm down and ask him to consider....if not... tell him to leave and be strong"but if he says "no I’m no cheating" the tell himI've been thinking and I believe with my heart that this is a good time for you and I to make this relationship a more mature one...I'd like to get married and see what he says...

Stay calm. Be a strong woman and get your man. Don’t let his to another....u MUST act him good, so he will stay with u. Remember strong woman, don’t show any wrong action like I did (Hah.. I don’t want to share la what happen to me, so stupid…) Be clever ok. Everything will be good.

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